Where do I go?

Ok, So now that The Beckoning Lake is recorded, I do not feel like recording the other songs that I have finished. I do not feel like they are up to par with TBL, which kind of makes sense. For one, TBL is mostly comprised of my previous songs. The songs had a magic when I had written them, but I feel that magic is gone. It is too familiar to me and not very challenging to listen to. Perhaps when others contribute to it, they will become a lot more interesting to listen to, but until then I am not sure I want to do them now. In terms of writing new music, I think I have got that covered. I am not one hudred percent sure what I will be writing. I might just go for writing "masterpieces" or regular "songs." I feel that if I make a piece that encompasses the other songs, I do not need to record the other songs to show everyone. May be I will, may be I won't, I am not sure.

Movement

It seems that all the things I wanted to do as a kid and didn't I am doing now. I have just picked up a book on Tai Chi which I have already started going through. Of course I am working with the very basics. My goal is to apply tai chi to my martial arts, then I would like to learn a dance form, and then finally become a movement artist. I feel a great connection through movement and it is expressive of my "softer" and peaceful side. So far my music describes the depressing, tension-wielding side of me, powerlifting and bodybuilding express the physical and mental strength part of me. Now I feel body movement will express what is left. While that may sound limiting, how those express only certain parts of me, that is not 100% accurate. I think it would be more correct in saying that I express xyz qualities through xyz mediums. I have tried expressing happier tones through music and what not, but it proved futile. I ultimately do as I feel and that is my purpose.

new lyrics

Stuck in the same mold
awareness vanished
distancing others
A constricting uselessness

within your mind (echoes)
the gears turn aimlessly
within your mind
you dwell in darkness

The aura of ascendence
my autumn to live
the leaves turn gold
illuminating vast light

blazing fire surrounds me
embers glowing, spell my name
creatures of fire
engulf my new mind

within your mind (echoes)
the gears turn aimlessly
within your mind
you dwell in darkness

CHANGING ROUTINES

I learned that it is very important to change how I practice. That is why practicing gets boring. I got stuck doing the same exercises and routines. What I am doing now is practice-playing. I am also working hard on the Anthro. songs.