It's interesting...my friends seem to not know me as well as I had hoped or thought they did. No one seems to realize my true work ethic and my constant, strong drive. They do not see the hours of hard work, whether that is training, or practicing, or thinking, or anything else that i put in. I do not believe in giving up. I do not believe in moderation. I believe in extreme conditions. I believe in pushing boundaries within myself as well as others. I bleive in the discipline that will allow me to subjugate my goals and visions. People do not see what goes on behind my "closed doors," they only notice where I am at. They can't look at my journey as much as i would like them too. They only know that i am doing it, but not to what extent. This basically reinforces my next point. For the passed years 1 through 20, what have i done with my life? Simply put, I created a base. Now that that base has been developed, its time to expand and take off. Everything from this point on will be in the direction towards what I vision. Nothing is going to stop me, and people will soon see this. This is the year, the age, that I will start yielding results. I will show others where my journeying has brought me. Don't get me wrong, I am not doing this to prove anything, I do this for myself, because it is what I love to do. I will break through.

Another idea I had, via brainstorming, is about building blocks. The music I have written thus far has not satisfied my visions yet. That is because, back then my technicalities and mind were not strong enough to cultivate what I wanted them too. As people, we evolve, or stagnate or deplete. I am evolving. There is no such thing as instant gratification, if something is so instantly pleasureful, is it truly satisfying? Perhaps, but that is not the case with art, well my art at least. The songs I have written thus far, have been necessary. To get from point A to Z, you need steps B-Y. That's what these songs serve as.

I have been visualizing in my head all sorts of ideas and creative improvisational workings. I have "improvised" in my head, songs of mine that I have written. One way I envision Anthromorphic songs to be played, is by the whole band playing the music, and then one person, (in this case, me) reacts to it. By reacting I mean improvising, as there are one in the same. There will be a lot more that can be done as well which I will talk about at a later time.

Another idea, that isn't mine, but I did like it a lot (props to Dom), is to change production throughout songs. Some sections of songs may sound better with massive reverb, or low fi recording or any other characteristic of production, so why should a whole song always sound the same throughout.

right now here are some of my musical influences

Coltrane, Mingus, Ulcerate, Spawn of possessions, Gorguts, Krallice, Wolves in the Throneroom, and many others.

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On to my last idea for this update. I have thought of a very interesting album cover. It is a picture/painting of this huge dinosaur. Something similar to a teradactyl (sp). It will be a winged beast and perched on top of a mountain. It will look huge in comparison, the dinosaur will over shadow the mountain. The mountain will be made of waves, as in oceanic waves. "Below," or in front of the mountain will be a clear path down the middle of the piece and it will be surrounded by trees. The trees will also not be vertical completely, they will be bent to the sides. The last part of the piece, so far is to have these 2 huge butterflies on either side of the trees flying. The butterflies will look grand and have a vast array of colors and many mixtures of colors. I am still working out the ideas behind this piece....

that is all for now