I am starting to feel very little need

to continue writing in my blogs. I found out a lot about myself through this and that was my goal. I feel like I know what I need to do to bring out the best in me, so now all there is to it is to do it.

likes and dislikes and how to change

likes and dislikes and how to change

i like my creativity
practicing hours a day
dancing for the love of it
bodybuilding
powerlifting
socializing
drinkin



I dont like
not being assertive
not being lively in my social encounters
not thinking fast
not engaging others well enough


how to start being assertive
make small decisions each day that I normally wouldn't

how to be more lively in social encounters
make eye contact
use more body language, more than just hand signs. Move body.
change tone of voice. Make it carry out more
communicate energy

how to think fast
just do it

how to engage others more efficiently
show them that I have something interesting to say
show them that I am interested in what they have to share
give them material to feed off of
be excited through speech

depression again (cyclical)

Been feelin depressed today/ yesterday. I think it may be a sort of monthly cycle. I have some big plans for music in the near future that I will refrain from talking about with people until they are actually done.

La Luna Llena- danceable, ambience, positive emotion-driven music
Anthromorphic- extreme death metal taken outside of all death metal boundaries
humanity falls- breaking boundaries of death metal
sludge/death band- heaviness/ugliness